recovery is a journey, not a destination

I have often talked about my anxiety, and my continual effort to live with it, but I hardly ever talk about my battle with depression and suicidal thoughts, nor do I talk about what recovery means to me. These are things that weigh on my heart and on my mind daily, but I don't ever vocalize…

twenty-five.

Today I turn twenty-five. It's weird, because a lot of the times I still feel like I'm sixteen. When someone needs an adult and turns to me, I still assume they're waiting for me to find an adult. I don't know how to be an authority figure (a true tragedy since I work in a…

forget safety; love wildly

I haven't ever been that girl who is careful with her heart. I'm too impulsive to take a step back from a situation and consider the emotional damage I may bring upon myself. More than that, I've never been one for passing up the chance for something great. Maybe that makes me brave, or maybe…

commencement

(Photo credit to the lovely and talented Laurel Guild) I'm baaaaaack. I seriously cannot believe I took an entire semester off, but I have been so busy and so much has happened in that time, but first and most importantly: I HAVE A MASTERS DEGREE!!!! This semester has been so mentally and physically draining (though I can…

the last first

Yesterday was my last first day of class--as a student at least. Yesterday I started my last semester of graduate school, a day I have been looking forward to almost as much as May 4 (my graduation day, which I'm looking forward to solely for the cute insta caption about being a master, and also…

a year for renewal

I've been thinking long and hard about my resolutions for 2017, because I want to have them written down somewhere for all to see. It keeps me accountable. It motivates me. It encourages me. I wanted to be able to bundle them up in a neat little package like I did my past resolutions, with…

be better 2016: wrapping it up

Look, I know we've still got a couple weeks of December left, but I'm going ahead and reflecting on how my resolutions for this year went, because it's time to start thinking about what I want for myself out of 2017. And honestly, 2016 has been such a fantastic shit show that I'm ready to…

more light

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe's last words were, "More light." Fitting that a writer and philosopher would go out with these words, words that describe something that society has not stopped seeking. I'm always searching for more light, both literally and metaphorically. I'm not one of those people who like to just sit around in darkness.…

responses to the phrase “you look tired”

I am. I am so, so tired. Do you know why I'm tired? Because life is exhausting. I haven't had a decent night's sleep in a week because I'm convinced there is a person living in the attic, in my closet, and under my bed, all simultaneously. I've reverted back to sleeping with the TV on,…

why i can never stop writing.

Originally posted on My Trending Story (which you should totally follow me on because there's stuff there you won't see here and vice versa). Can I confess something to you? I hate writing. Absolutely loathe it. Every time an idea pops into my head, I silently groan as I write it down so I won't lose…