tomorrow, i will be better

As I’ve already stated numerous times, I have an anxiety disorder. Actually, let’s just leave it at “I have anxiety.” I don’t like the word “disorder,” because anxiety does not make me a broken clock in need of fixing. It took me a long time to get to the point where I can say anxiety…

be better 2016 update

So like everyone else in the world, I made New Year’s resolutions. Unlike everyone else, I decided to make them public because I thought that would keep me more accountable. Did it? Well, that’s what this post is about; we’re halfway through 2016, so I’m going to measure my success (or failure) in hopes of…

turnpike thoughts

Confession time: I hate driving on the turnpike. I mean, sure, it gets me to and from Tulsa quicker, but at what cost? But I have to admit, there’s something about the drive that absolutely takes my breath away. I’ve been a lot of places, most of them beautiful, but there’s something about a hundred…

never again

So I went on vacation last week with Melissa and Laurel. We hiked the Grand Canyon, saw the Hoover Dam, walked the strip in Vegas, and got tattoos in Flagstaff. But only the first thing is important right now. I, Kylee Jackson, will never hike the Grand Canyon ever again in my natural-born life. Don’t…

who says you can’t teach a new dog old tricks?

I was 22 when I finally¬†learned¬†how to ride a bike. There is a very good explanation for why I didn’t learn to ride a bike before that–I never really needed to. My father, like all good fathers, tried to teach me as a child; it did not end well (which was then repeated when he…

for everyone who had a plan once and watched it go up in smoke

Listen. You’re not a failure just because your life didn’t turn out exactly how you thought it would. No one’s laughing at you for believing you could account for all the variables life would throw at you. It’s human nature to picture what your best case scenario is and do whatever you can to make…

this is my story

It’s 2007. I’m in ninth grade and decide to enroll in Creative Writing with my best friend on a whim. There has always been a part of me that longed to tell a story–my story–and this set the ball in motion. The class was silly and interesting and had me telling stories that were not…

writer’s block

So I’ve had this document open for roughly 36 hours now, and I still have nothing to write about. Or I do, but I can’t articulate it into words in a linear fashion that will make sense to anyone other than myself. Hopefully everything can take shape in the next few days and I can…

I’m a special kind of control freak. There are minor things that I can easily give up control of, that I want to give up control of. I don’t like making decisions, especially big ones. I don’t like making plans or falling into routine–it quickly turns monotonous and leaves me feeling stagnant so I like…

excelsior

First off, I wanted a picture of the Grand Canyon, but as I can not legally attain one, this will have to do. We’ll get to why in a moment. Things have been… not great… for awhile now. But last week, my brother was officially declared cancer-free, and I’m using that as the foundation to…

my inauguration

Today I did something that terrified me–I got close enough to a goose to take this picture. I don’t know why I’m scared of geese, or even why it started. I know I was already scared of them when they chased me down in the pouring rain outside of ORU my sophomore year of college…